Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Hopefully it works!

Day 2 of trying not to message you, the urge is quite hard to fight against. Luckily had projects and friends to help me not think about it. Hopefully this will turn out to be something good!

I really need to do something to change my luck. It has been terrible ever since year 1.1! But some good things did happen on the way and few of the best is joining Aikido, getting to know my friends and most importantly, seeing you and getting to know you even if it just virtual chatting that we had done so far...

Thinking back, I had alot of great chances to get to know you earlier but however I did not cherish the chances. One SUPER GOOD example is that faithful sunday! Damnit! I shall elaborate it, lolz, who wants to know can ask CY, Nafees or Vincent. But I think Vincent should have forgotten already though. Lolz!

Friday, January 16, 2009

Get off my chest!

Been thinking about alot of stuff...most particularly about someone. All these time, I have only been asking questions, alot are irrelevant. I do not know how to face you and talk normally. Seeing you just freezes everything inside of me. Most of the time you reply but sometimes you don't, I not sure how you are feeling which I really want to know but I'm scared that if I confess to you, we might just not be able to be friends anymore.

Someone mentioned something and said that you are a kind, gentle girl. Someone who never gets angry. It got me thinking, are you just answering out of courtesy or you regard me as a friend who did not speak more than 10 sentences with you so far.

I hope my bad assumptions are wrong and what I interpret is correct.

Just today, I thought about what I had been doing lately. I realised that most of the things I done have been for my own selfish desires/reasons. Hopefully, I can change that for the better but not the worse.

I had told this to several people who I know that even if this bus runs off without me, I will chase it till the end or in other words "Give up the forest for a tree". I really do not mind it at all as I feel that you are definitely worth it, no one has given me that particular kind of feel. Even if I am in the process of chasing the bus with or without someone else aboard, I wish you happiness in whatever you do.

Somehow I feel like shouting out loud, and forgetting everything with a headbutt to the wall...
If you only knew the impact you have on my life...and I do not know why...
If only I had the courage to tell you everything...

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Random

What Animal are You?
Sheep
You are a sheep. You're more of a follower than a leader, and prefer a more peaceful day than a busy one. You're very compassionate and like to help those in need. You make time for plans and are true to your word.

Did this quiz on CY's blog twice and got the same results! Guess I am a sheep! But don't judge a book by its cover! Muahahahaha!

A random "poem" I made up in less than 1 min:

You make me happy,
You make me sad,
How is it possible?
I do not know,
Since the first time,
I see you,
You had this hold,
On my very soul!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

4th Jan 2009!

Today went for compulsory training, it was good to see alot of the juniors turning up! Good job! Left the mat laying to them today as I felt tired lolz!

Anyway training was good, however I do not know why but after a few rolls, my thighs just felt super tired! Could not train very well. Got called up to do Monotedori Iriminage demo, and it killed me even more! Was planning to do some serious Iriminage-ing, with the pulling of collars and everything but did not have the energy though....As usual, Kris was super keen on trying to decimate whoever that partners with her. She very kan chiong when doing the Koshinage..tsk tsk, no wonder cannot throw me! Hohoho!

After training lunch was pretty ok, dunno why but I only drank a cup of soya bean + chin chow and ate chicken rice without finishing the vegetables! What is happening!

Getting abit out of shape! Must go train abit! Field soccer this Sat! Maybe! Hopefully!

Progress has been good! Hopefully it continues to become even better! Wooooo!

3rd Jan 2009!

Went to the very first service yesterday for Hope Church! I must say it was quite a nice experience. Met up with Ser Meng, Nicholas, Marco, Mark(Marco), Benjamin(Big), Benjamin(Small), Zhi Wei and one more guy(forgot the name =x) at Plaza Singapura's Kopitiam. Ate lunch and then we went to search for present for a female who I do not know =/. Lolz! A Mecha guy and his friend joined us abit later.

After that we went to hide somewhere and "ambushed" JP and sort of celebrated his birthday with a birthday song and then he ate his tiramisu cake. After that we made our way to Cuppage Plaza and met Joseph on the way. I was quite surprised like Ser Meng said, I did not thought that Hope Church would be located at Cuppage Plaza' Nexus Auditorium.

It was very different from the church Shemona went to. But the place was nice, they sell quite a big selection of books including bibles and improvement books there too. After waiting for a while, we proceed to be seated in a place where it feels like a movie theater! The layout was the same as a theater and the only thing that was different was that it had a stage.

Had worship, praise and drama. Drama was pretty funny and I think I get what message they are trying to portray. Attend the first preach in my life, it felt just like lecture in school but the pastor, Jasmine, was definitely more interesting to listen to than lecturers in school.

She said "Imagine 90 of Nexus Auditorium full of mist and 30 metres deep, it might seem alot! But when you compress the whole thing into becoming water, it can barely fill a glass! That is was worry is! Worry exaggerates the whole problem!" And I find this particular point quite true!

After service went to a nearby food court to eat, talk quite abit and played True or Dare. However no one did Dare lolz! Anyway, when we were returning from buying drinks, Big Benjamin suggested we introduce ourselves to the Engine school girls who were having their dinner in the pizza place. We "agreed" to his suggestion and when he went in and started talking, he did not bothered to look back to see that we have all walked another way! LOLZ! Talked somemore and went home!