Good things, bad things

Well like I said: "All well, ends well". It stopped before it even began. It can't be helped...But luckily things now are better in a sense, we get to talk and play around unlike in the past where there seems to be some sort of a pressure barrier.

Most people will remember me putting my nick on MSN that everything will change when I shave my hair. Yes, it did change as a matter of fact. Even before I shaved. But...it came back just when I thought everything was okay. Call me loser, call me liar, call me whatever you want, it just can't be helped. It was just too sudden. I just need more time to sort it out properly.

Anger, frustration, disappointment and questions. There is so many things that I want to ask you and tell you. So many things you had said and did not said. So many things other people said. But I am afraid that it will just make everything go bad. People get affected and I don't want that cause it shouldn't be that way. Its between the two of us.

All in all, please don't worry about me =D

June

June had been the most happiest month so far in my life. And that is just because of 3 days, 3 specifically special days that I got to spend with someone important. It is surprising how just in a few days, I am able to get so affected by someone who I just knew.

I am not sure about what happened or if anything did happened, I feel really distant all of a sudden. I feel very conflicted with many thoughts coming to my mind. Many things you said affected me in a way but perhaps you don't know, but it's ok cause I feel that I am being selfish or just thinking too much. I really hope that things can go back to the way we are before we talked. You might say I am thinking too much, but perhaps you are doing it too. Yes, no? Well, think about it.

Enlistment!

Hello all! I have finally gotten my enlistment letter! And the date for enlistment is 29th July 2010, 8.45am at BMTC School 2 at Pulau Tekong!

Crap after all the stories I heard about Tekong! Please pray for my safety! And my other friends too! =D Hope everyone will be alright! Excited to see which unit I will be posted to! Hopefully its something I like =)

Anyway to continue on the previous post, I got to know someone I wanted to know better through these few weeks/months, hopefully I will get to know her even more! Go kite flying, go picnic or just taking the train or bus is ok with me! So yeah, thanks for being so open towards someone you don't even know! All the best for your exams! =D

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Update!

Lots of stuff have happened and I am very happy they did! I look forward for the first outing! More details next time! Haha

Whatever

Many things had happened over this few weeks. Relationship, friendship, studies, traveling...Whatever shit u can think of has happened. Some of these stuff just happen suddenly and brought about alot of confusion. Others gradually piled up over time and just exploded.

Most of the time I feel helpless...Many of the things that happened, I do not have experience handling them, friends with problems I cannot give good advice without having experience them myself. Yes, listening and doing is up to them but it just does not feel right.

I'm disappointed in myself to forget that particular someone so easily. I remembered what I did, but I just cannot remember how you look like. So is this the so called feelings I had for you? Something that just died so easily after some time? Or when someone else just seem to come in?

Whatever man, this is so screwed up

Random

Kris said something sad but true today which brings me to say something I said to Zi Zhao on Thursday. What did Kris and I said is something that I will leave to Kris and Zi Zhao to say if they want to say, cause I do not want to say it again or hear it being said. With this being said I shall end this post that has lots of says and said.

Why?

I realised that every day that have Aikido trainings, I wont be able to sleep at night...Too hyper? Or was it the Ice Milk Tea that I like to drink during dinner? Hmmmm....

Anyway today went back home to sleep first then proceed to take 8 to school for the Fitness Star Program. And guess who I saw? Someone from the girls school at Kelvin house who looks just like Geraldine! Complete with the sharp face and yes, there is a mole on her left cheek...! And she is like sitting right in front of me in the bus, facing me! Zzzzz

FSP today was pretty slack, learn more of the correct running style from the instructor and after that we played Handball! I volunteered to be keeper again and got a clean sheet for all 4 matches we played straight. Hohoho! Not bad eh! But credits go to the team for defending and attacking well! Haha!

Random

Today while walking to Tampines interchange to take 81 home ahead of Zi Zhao, Kris, Hamzah and Jah Joon, I suddenly felt like crying... I do not know why. It just came over me out of nowhere.

Anyway I want to know why people I do not really know have such a impact on me... Can anyone tell me why?



Fade in, fade out
Blurry glimpses of you
Why do I have such a lousy memory?

Training Schedule!

Monday: Maybe abit of gymming before going to run Bedok Reservoir at 6pm
Tuesday: Gym - mainly lower body
Wednesday: Gym - mainly upper body
Thursday: Maybe abit of jogging before/after Aikido training
Friday: Fitness Star Program!


Hopefully I will stick to this schedule lol!

Arrivals and Departures

People come and go, for the 3 years in the Aikido club I have seen countless members leave. Some are those one-timers, multiple-timers and those long-timers. Those long-timers are mostly great people who just either lost interest or just got too busy. Most of them are friends of mine, some are better gone =x. I shall not name those better off gone =x.

After training for so long, you can notice the change in people, pace and attitude. Everything just seem so empty suddenly with the usual people gone, replaced with new people that you don't really know. So it brings on the statement "Cherish the time with your friends and family, cause you won't know when something might just happen and you won't see them much anymore."

But luckily, we still go out and have fun even though they are not coming to training anymore! Hoho and that is what the bonds created throughout the interactions we had is for! True friendship is not so easily severed!

Received news that Geraldine is not working at GV anymore due to heavy school workload. Hopefully she is provided with an allowance by her family if not I cannot imagine what she have to go through for food and other expanses! Hang on wor and take care!

Random Stuff

I been thinking about getting a part-time job that has flexible times. Was thinking about this as lately I feel that my wallet is getting tighter, in addition to listening to my Mom complain about have "red bills" which means its overdue. Luckily, my Aunt will be selling her house so she will be coming to stay at my house and like my Mom said "She can help to pay the bills!" =X.

Recently, I found out that GV only pay $4 per hour for the part-time workers! Waa! Its like pretty little compared to my lousy previous Shop N Save job! And Geraldine is like working only on weekends(I think), how much can she manage to earn to pay for her needs? Its pretty hard for her to study and work throughout the week yeah? Keep up the good work!

Oh yea and thanks to Chanzee for telling me about those one day jobs of his! Good money! Haha!

Today during training, I seem to realize that the zeal and enthusiasm that we used to have during training are mostly gone. One reason is that I think when you become a senior and have experienced some injuries, you tend to slow down and slack =/. Those young days are good though! Or maybe its just me getting old =P

I feel disappointed in myself today for being humji and not going to check if Geraldine is still working at GV Tamp! Like I told Wing "I felt scared and ran home!" ZZZzzzz! I cannot seem to get the "Do or you will miss it forever" mentality into my mind anymore! I must get back into shape!

So one question remains....Do you still remember me after so long?

Take care and have a nice day! Haha!

Oh who got job lobang tell me yea? Hehe!

Sunday Training!

Today's training was damn fun! And also since it was raining and the Qi Gong people were taking up the hall, we got to use the 2nd floor multi-purpose studio which is air-conditioned!!! Woot! I hope every Sunday's training would be like today haha =P

Memories of a railway track

Today while I was watching My Date With A Vampire on PPStream, Raymond suddenly told me about the news of two RP students, a couple who were killed on the railway track leading to Malaysia. This prompted memories of the trek that Wing organised weeks ago that me and Nafees went. Apparently the two students were killed after they were hitted while they were sitting on the tracks. Both suffered multiple fractures and both have one leg nearly severed off. The boy's was amputated. Those who went for the trek would remember the sight of an iguana's body. The head was missing and the tail was found a few feet away from the body with the skin cut and bones jutting out. It was quite a bad sight and there were huge, fat flies flying around!

I do not know the reasons why the couple decided to walk along the track at night. Perhaps it was a night walk and perhaps there was other possibilities. I would not trek along the track with only two person as the place is quite creepy and such....Yes I humji! Can a not?!

I have severe doubts about the security of that place! It is called an abandoned track so why the hell is it still in use?! And also there is a station that trekkers have to pass through when trekking and the people inside just do not seem to give a shit when we passed through! Could something like this be prevented if they cared more? Most probably!

Edit: My mistake! It is not an abandoned railway track.

However the question remains that if they were sitting on the tracks when they got hitted by the train, why didn't they felt the train coming?

A great day or not?

Yesterday was the day that me and the others went to watch the fireworks preview for the NDP 2009.

The first thing I woke up to do was no doubt to play some of the Facebook applications. One particular application is the "God wants you to know" thingy and it gave me "God wants you to know that today will be a great day". And what a "great" day it was. I woke up to 4 smses telling me that they will not be able to make it for the fireworks watching. It was ok as they do have more important stuff to do. Following on was the usual Saturday soccer behind East Spring. For some stupid reasons I slipped and fell on my left hip bone on the side and now I am unable to walk properly without feeling the pain. Zzzzzz.... Then I received the worst news I considered for the day! Someone at GV Tampines had fallen sick and now Geraldine has to take over his/her position and could not make it for the fireworks as her shift ends at 9pm! No! Damnit! But still work is more important, there can be other chances....hopefully!

After that was swimming, it was pretty ok and I got better at controlling my breathing. Then somehow while I was on the bus ride home, emo-ness just seemed to set in. I felt like cancelling the whole thing or thinking of a reason to just stay home while the others went on. However I forced myself to go as I was the organiser! A poor one I might add! But it was a good decision to decide to go for the fireworks! Faith could not make it as she was stuck in church...Lolz! And the rest of the day was spend with the rest of the guys and talking lots of crap. It was good in the end! And I must say the fireworks was pretty nice this year especially the ending rapid fire lol! I so hoped Geraldine was there to see it! Oh well!

1st August 2009!

Those going to catch the preview of the fireworks for NDP 2009 this Saturday 1st Aug, please note that meeting time is 6pm at Tampines MRT. Those going for training should reach the Esplanade by 7.30pm. We should be there by 8pm!!!!! I only asked some people to go because too much people later no space or something! And hopefully that special someone will be able to attend! Haha! Anyway after the fireworks I believe Nafees and Wing wants to go to the newly opened Ion Shopping Mall or whatever. So maybe we could find something to do over there =/. Anyone got suggestions please to tell! I am a noob organiser so please help! I'm serious! =P

Edit: I just remembered that Kris wants to eat MacDonalds! So we probably be eating MacDonalds after watching the fireworks! Hahaha....

Exercise!

Yesterday went swimming after MP/SIP. It was raining but we still went on ahead with the swimming. Luckily, the rain stopped for awhile. But after we swam for some time it started raining again! But the lifeguards let us swim still wahahaha! The pool was quite empty and yes! It is a good thing as I cannot swim very well. I got problems with the breathing part on frog-style haha! And yea saw a few not bad looking eye candy while in the pool. Not too bad! Hehe!

After swimming for like around 20 laps, I decided to go for today's gym session also! Yes I must force myself to stop being lazy! Although my shoulders are aching but its ok! Wahaha! Anyway told Kris while online in Facebook and she decided to skip training and go gyming instead. She got there earlier than us and went in ahead. So when we reached and changed she was cycling for awhile already. I stepped on the scale and realised I have gain 3kgs! No! Really cannot slack already! Anyway did those usual chest machines and the weight section is crowded as usual....ZZzzzz.

Here is a big secret! Kris weighs heavier than a certain someone!!! But no worries, I think you can slim down....Hopefully....Eventually...=x

Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince

Last Friday went to watch Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. Was actually going to watch Disney Pixar's Up but apparently it was not out yet! Damn! But luckily I got to buy tickets at the counter....However! Geraldine was not there! She was instead at the ticket stub tearing place lol! Anyway I saw her and she saw me etc then me, Nafees and WQ went to San's Bookshop to let me buy the Book 2 and 3 of the Warcraft Trilogy. Yes, its a good book and no its not about the Warcraft 3 campaign story! Went on to Toys R Us to check out the Transformers toys that Nafees wanted to buy for his cousin or something. And yes seeing those toys and Gundam models bring back memories! But I feel that the Transformers toys last time was nicer! Megatron was a dragon and all but it was damn expensive! Lol!

Then met up with the juniors and went to Kopitiam to eat! Alot of people were there so we had to sit at different tables but its ok since we only had 30mins to eat. Wing came to join us and talk crap. I must admit she looks like a office lady....that is until I saw her shoes! Omg! Its quite funny actually! While eating Wing decided to follow us to GV where we would be watching the movie just to see who Geraldine is!

And wow! Is it Heaven's will or what! Wing actually knows Geraldine! Everyone was freaking surprised! My S.O.S has been answered! Thank god! Or Wing(no you are not a goddess =P) actually...LOL!

Harry Potter was ok....They failed to capture the important points in the story book and instead they emphasis on the less important parts like the relationship development between Ginny and Harry etc. Yes it might be funny to some people like Chin Siong(Yes he is lame). But I believed most people watch Harry Potter movies for the magic, duels, the mystical stuff! If we wanted relationship stuff we would just catch Romance movies...Overall, I felt the fights in Hogwarts should be a key plot in the movie but it just flew past and nothing even happened. Other than the destroying of the Hall where Hogwarts people ate in....

And damn Nafees for rushing me to get out as he needs to go to the toilet! If I were slower to exit the theatre...I might have just gotten what I wanted!!! Noooooo! But oh well! I did not take the chance myself....Damn!


Soccer on Saturday was good! Even though we lost terribly! Our defense made some mistakes and also some good interceptions, clearance and tackling. The only thing that maddens me is the lack of support from the other players. Only 1 or 2 players from the midfield came back to help us defend. 3 defenders defending against 5 or more attackers! Wow! Its a surprise we did not get thrashed more! The defense was strengthen more later on but the tiredness and sluggishness from not playing for a long time made our players lose out in the end! But it was a good experience though!

Oh and after the match ZZ apparently used Wing's phone and played around with me. And yes, I do know it does not feel like Wing replying but perhaps it was the tiredness or what. It made me feel freaking pissed off and I could not take the joke and proceeded to tell them off haha! And oh some things I believe cannot be truely interpreted in smses etc. Its better to talk directly in person afterall!

A Turnover?

Lately I have been super lazy. I skipped trainings, Foodmin outings. I did not even try to make things work. In school for MP/SIP most of time I was doing nothing other than playing games and the deadline is coming soon 17 August which is like less than 1 months time. I even play until I forgot to go to watch the demo for i.Live.

Laziness and eating oily food for breakfast is making me fat! I need to exercise more! I need to change my mindset about jogging is tiring and the feeling sucks etc! Screw it! Jog! Run! Push-ups! Weight lifting! Gogogo!

I watched the i.Live demo video on Facebook. It was pretty good, seeing that not all are multiple dojo goers. Keep up the good work, there is more room for improvement on the free excerise part! And why didn't we have those "Wow!" etc comments when we did the demo last time!!!! Nooooo! Oh well!

Once upon a time, I was able to lie and trick people while keep a straight and serious face, making them believe it is true! But however, ever since joining Aikido or something, the ability seems to have disappeared! Especially if I was lying or trying to play a trick on a female! Why! No! It can't be! So is it good or bad? Damnit!

How many people believes in retribution? Please raise your hands! For those who did not raise your hand, let me tell you a personal experience that might just change your perpective!

I was in Primary school, me and my brother love to go down stairs and play soccer with the neighbourhood kids. There was this one time we discovered lots of insects like grasshoppers, spiders, moths etc living just behind the wall in the grass patches. So like what kids do, I took a 1 litre coke bottle and proceed to catch a whole butch of them. I thought the spiders would eat up the grasshoppers and moths but they did not. Disappointed I went on the fill the bottle up with water, drowning all the insects inside. It did not end there, after that I put the bottle inside the freezer and froze them all! My mother found it and scolded the shit out of me and threw it away. I did not felt anything...BUT!!!! After that day onwards, no matter what insects that came across me other than ants would instill a fear inside of me!

So is this a case of retribution? Or was it just a case of hidden fear until it awakened?


On a side note, I did not join up with another church or what. Those questions I asked you was just to know what you think about them. The only church that I would join and be converted if I wanted would be none other than Hope Church. It was the most welcoming and pleasant place that I have ever been to.

Please stop ignoring me.

Sending out an S.O.S

I guess almost everyone should know about who Geraldine is....so I shall not elaborate anymore hehe. Anyway it not like what most people think it is, she is just someone who I have a strong feeling that I want to know her better. The feeling is not same as with you-know-who. So as the title of post see fit, I am sending out an S.O.S to all people out there who can help me to help me! Lolz! PY's cousin could not help and he was mine last resort! Nooooo! I guess I have to use my trump card! Which is me....not very useful though =x

Anyway yesterday went to Barossa to have my first drink which is a Mojito called "Ultimate Vanilla". The taste was not bad but the aftertaste is a bit weird to me. But apparently Chris and Jah Joon said it was nice... Then I went on to try the Crown's Lager beer and I shall never drink beer again! I was helping to finish off one bottle but the bitter taste was stacking in my mouth and OMG it sucks!! I think the next time if I were to drink I would probably order Chris' drink which I do not know the name lol!

So to all Autobots and Decepticons alike out there! This is Lin Quan and please lend me a helping hand! =x

Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

Watched Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen today at GV Tampines. The movie was pretty nice, story is quite action packed and sometimes quite funny also! For some reasons Autobots just kick ass man! I was really looking forward to seeing Jetfire but it was kind of disappointing due to how they featured him as a "old" guy and not a "young" one. However Jetfire still kicked ass! Woot! The movie is definitely worth watching, I really think magazines eg. 8 Days etc should get better reviewers instead of those who keep giving low ratings for good movies!

Anyway first thing I did when I reached the cinema was to check if Geraldine was there anot and yes she is! After the movie, we waited near the counter area for sometime while I was deciding whether to talk to her anot, then we moved to the arcade area...! Finally after quite some time of deciding and walking to and fro checking if her counter was empty anot, I decided to just go for it! And so I went queueing up pretending to buy tickets after I watched finished my movie just minutes ago.....The buy on the spot line was pretty empty and the counter beside hers keep asking me if I want to go there to "purchase" my ticket but I waved no and let the others behind me go haha. So after waiting for the previous group that cut infront of me when I was in line to her counter to finish...her counter was finally empty!!! But then! The online purchased queue suddenly alot of people!!! And she was looking at the online purchase queue and me, seeing who want to approach her first...so I just chiong ar!

And then I did the stupidest thing I have ever done so far....probably! My first attempt she couldn't hear me so she leaned forward and said "Sorry?", I repeated myself and said "Sorry to bother you while you are working.....I just want to say have a nice day." She gave a "Oh ok" kind of look and I just gave her a smile and a wave and made my escape!

Haha I feel I wasted this chance and the thing I said was damn stupid! Sian! Hope she dun mind me bothering her while she was working =x